As vocal and open as I am to people, I repress a lot of things. I repress feeling for certain people, thoughts, and actions. There are so many times when I just want to let them all loose…but I can’t. I refuse to let myself feel these things. This is the result of being hurt…it provokes restraint and trust issues.

But I feel like sharing my mind. I miss having a girl. No I don’t miss my ex I just miss the idea of having that girl I could talk to about anything, making her laugh, her smile making my day, being deep and serious with her even though people don’t think that side of my exists. I want to have all those feelings back. I just can’t wait to find that girl. Just give me a chance and I can show I can be a great guy. So this girl, if you’re out there, can’t wait to meet you or maybe we already know each other. I don’t know.